harold’s Blog

it’s all my fault why i’m being misunderstood. it’s all my fault why i’m being down. . i love her and yet i cant show her what i really feel . . i love her and yet i cant take the risk being in love with her .. . . . . .others think that i’m PLAYSAFe with her . . . . .. . ..and she really thought too …..

it really hurts na  sbhin sau ng mahal mo ng playsafe kah . . .but without knowing my real reason . .i’m afraid enough to lose her ….for the reason na ganun nga ako.

i think mga last week ata iyon ng tanungin niya ko if i really love her .  ..i replieD OO MAHAL NA MAHAL . .  bkt mu natnong??? then she said na bakit di nia daw nararamdaman  . . . . .hindi na ako kumibo dahil alam ko na  nasa akin ang problEMA  . .problema na dahilan kung bakit ayoko sa sarili ko . .ayaw na ayaw!!!!!

before ….isa sa mga topic nmin ung mga nging ka m.u. niya  . .tinanung ko siya y hindi ngtagal m.u., nila .she said PLAYSAFE DAW CLAH!!! SBI KO NMN edi hindi muna ako gusto dhil playsafe pamo ako. . . .she cant answered straightly she said na. . BASTA AYOKO NG PLAYSAFE!!!!!!! hindi na nmn ako kumibo dhil nasaktan ako dun khit papano!!!

one week akong stress and lging ngkakasakit dahil nga sa lgi nming misunderstanding. . . .maga ang mga mata ko sa kakaiyak . . .every night hindi makatulog . . .lagi na nlng ako wala sa mood and madals napapaaway . .haaaaaaay haaaaay ika nga REALITY REALLY HURTS!!!!!!!REALLY HURTS!!!!

MASAKIT MAN ,. . un ung katotohanan  . .i dont deserve to  be loved and i dont deserve too to love someone else . … . .. pero ngmamahal ako ngaun and ako ay minamahal pero hindi ko napaparamdam and naipapakita man lang …

I’M AFRAID TO HURT SOMEONE BUT I’M WILLING TO TAKE RISKS JUST FOR SOMEONE!!! HINDI KO CNCC C GOD DHIL GN2 AKO ,DHL AKO NMN NGPAPATAKBO NG BUHAY KO AND YET ALAAKONG KARAPATAN MANIC!!

NOW I’M WORKING THIS OUT  . ..I’M PROVING HER WRONG . . AND PAPASAYAHIN KO NA SIYA .. . ..SANA WAG LANG XA MANIBAGO DHIL SA MGA KINIKILOS KO . . . . DAHIL AYOKO NA MGING DAHILAN ANG PAGBABAGO KO NA LAYUAN PA NIA AKO ULET!!!!!!!

NOW I L0VE MYSELF LIKE THE WAY I’M LOVING HER!!!!

SIGNED:

HARHAR!!!

Ever since i dreamed to be loved by sum1 hu really care for me . .actually it happens but the worst thing is . .my heart is cast by sum1 more, rather than the first hu do it so . . . . . . i dont know wht to do it breaks me down . . . !

Now, i dont know if i’m gonna be happy of what i have ryt now . . . .it seems to be awkward on my side coz i didn’t say the truth behind of letting my heart go away from her . . . yes! it is true that i dont luv her anymore it fades! but i cant say that i luv sumone else who really deserve me . .i dont have any courage to do it so for i dont wanna hurt her much . . . . . .will i continue my love for her or will i continue reaching out to my new girl who take my heart???????

I definitely dont know if i hurt her . .or i hurt her much for not telling the truth . . . . she said shes okei cos im honest enough to admit that i dont love her . . .. .despite of there is another reasons deep within in me . .why i do it so. .

lonesome mode>>>>>>>>>>>>